It’s funny really….but it’s not.There is this part of me that doubts myself so regularly. I wonder do you feel this? In yourself I meanI have this childlike EXPANSIVE place of deep womb wisdom where offerings come flying in I see them clearly, I feel them deeply and I put them out there to share with you. Like a child on Christmas morning, curious about who might like to come and share; who might like to be part of these containers tooWeaving their magic and mystery with me. In alignmentFlowing and just letting goand then amongst all of the excitement the high vibrational energy I get ripped outI doubt myselfI self sabbotageand I think am I mad?
It happened recently with this offering here:jhttps://mailchi.mp/6dfdeec5f186/i-am-so-excited-this-is-ripe-juicy-abundant-magicThe truth was it flew in at such a high speed I saw the capes, the morning mist, mother cacao and ALL of the magic being weaved SO BEAUTIFULLY and in an instant it was with you. There in your inboxand I laughedexcitedhopefulfaithfulJOYFULLand then I got ripped out....Why am I telling you this? Because it happens a lot since joining this path & so I sense it is not just myself that experiences this self sabbotage. It feels so important to share the places we are struggling or feeling like we need support. Releasing that sense of “I have all the answers” for I know I have not, none of us haveIt is a path of deep courage & devotionIt is also SO important for me to be real at every opportunity; at every place where I am ableIt is why I left a vulnerable video on instagram recently speaking my truth and then left. I’d had enough. That platform no longer felt like TruthYou know Truth when you feel it; let me tell you I KNOW this and I am gratefulIf I am here to be part of a global light move, weaving magic with & as part of the New Earth & healing deep wounds with light and love which I deeply believe I am; small but vital; then I have to be realI have to speak my truthI have to check in with myself regularlyIt changes dailySome days i am grounded rooted in alignment; peaceful resilient. Happy contendedSome days I am all over frightened like a wounded animal desperately seeking the light; afraid of the earth and those within itThe polaritiesCalling all parts togetherThe light and darkThe truth of it alland so it is we dance....
