Prior to embarking on this journey I was struggling for many years; exhausted depleted alone isolated; in pain. Suffering. Constantly. Peaks & troughs yes but an undercurrent always on repeat within me of “I am suffering. I had no idea how to ask for this programme to stop running.
In reality this manifested as chronic fatigue syndrome, candida, debilitating brain fog, leg cramps , migraines, allergies, insomnia; feeling hope less & trapped in my body like a prisoner in a cell wondering what I had done to deserve it all & who might be able to help. In between dragging myself to work (legal recruitment; pretty tough energetically & draining emotionally) going to the gym or the pool (when I was able to push myself a little harder) & going out partying (to try & regain that sense of “normal” – I was in my 20’s when it started) I’d spend my days in bed lonely & depressed. My weekends were just the result of my working week which meant I was limp & depleted. Moving on I conceived 2 babies which felt like a miracle really given the state of what I was experiencing in my body. Both babies had ‘birth defects’ & amongst great sadness pain & grief I, “we”, chose terminations. Baby 3 came and went with no heart beat. I called her my Grace.
I truly understand the agony of going through these experiences as a woman. A woman who desperately desires to be a mother.
I also know the beauty the gratitude & the wonder; the miracles on the other side of this life …
Moving forward when all conventional medicine had seemingly “failed me” & all complementary & holistic therapies whilst supporting me (thank you!) but not quite getting to the root cause ; I found Reiki
I remember my beautiful teacher saying to me “life will never be the same again” & I recall that feeling of fear in the pit of my stomach. What does she mean? Even living amongst hell, change felt so fearful .
Reiki became my everything , my energy changed, as did my focus. I quit my long-standing corporate job in favour of rest & flow & with it I found faith love hope & connection too;
My self.
Unconditional Love has catapulted my healing into a completely different dimension. Drawing on Reiki as a baseline yes but the creation of my own unique divine feminine essence & KNOWING as well as my sacred masculine presence comes from One. It comes from my heart & my soul
It is the reason I am here on this Earth; just to love
