I believe there is such a thing as spiritual suicide
I haven’t written about it before as I haven’t read it anywhere else & because of that I doubt myself. But I’d like to talk about it here a little now in case it helps ❤️
I believe what is happening “here”
Is you are offering yourself up to God & fundamentally being cleansed of all you’re not
I know people talk of ego death & it is definitely this but I feel it is something more
It is where your soul has made a pact that you can’t live here anymore
Things are too frightening, too frustrating, too closed, too incorporated
You cannot function. And what i mean by this is your Truth. It can’t speak, it can’t express, it can’t be the person it is meant
So it splits off, it breaks, a different personality forms until
It incorporates & when it does a whole being is formed.
In the mean time it may feel as though you have “committed suicide”. You are not really here
You are between worlds trying to work out which way to go; what to do next
& only your soul can decide.
For you have chosen that path & anything less is sacrifice.
In this space you have to wait. Surround yourself with space , good mates & all the love in the world that lets your spirit soar
Really deep nourishment 🙏 as well as rest.
You have to call in all of your authority
Make decisions you might not want to
And go about your way crystal
Clear
For indeed you are wanting more & remembering, fundamentally, what life IN LOVE is
For anyone wanting to explore this I am here & we can create a bespoke programme to your wishes.
I have needed an invaluable sense of support in these spaces & these have come through the most valuable souls . They support my journey & I honour who they are
This path never continues at the sense of pain & isolation you have known. There is always an opening, always a break, although it may feel like it will never come
I want you to know there is life at the end of the tunnel, & I say this after experiencing 2 rounds of psychosis & being quite honestly petrified as well as enlightened.
The whole process is very distinct. Very personal in a very non personal way & that juxtaposition can be quite “upsetting”
Love is fundamentally liberating
It does not hold you in a cage
It does not expect anything or place expectations upon you so
It is quite different to
The love we have been taught here to
Know & believe to be true.
It deals not with other people’s disappointments fears & doubts but holds YOU in your sacred centred self
Well & cared for & cherished. Exactly as you are
With all my love, Katie xx
A friend 🌹upon this path
