It mattered that I loved you
That I could look at you, like that
And know for a very long time that I had waited
To look at you like that.
It mattered
That you burst into our life
And tore my seams apart
And even though it wasn’t long
That I had been with man, there was an essence of a man
I had waited
My whole entire Life for
In your heart.
The cat could move in
I’d already decided that.
And if the man who had created a new door wanted to shout
That I had let him down
Then let him shout.
Id bare the brunt of that
In order for True Love….
That blessing came in equal guises
The way you looked at me that night terrifies us
Women of a life, who have lived so well with doubt
To see the mattress blazing when the truest soul alights
You, you there , with your eyes so kind
Looked up at mine and my entire heart melted in your hands
And the cat, you just happened to be fondling, cradled in your arms
Amongst plumes of smoke that I did not recognise
That took your doped hands down
How I wish they had fondled me across the table
How I wish we’d had every conversation I thought was available
How id committed to this man , from the off
And yet my tale could not bow down
Until I meet His God.
