It started long before it was already written.
I was standing at the nurses side. The one who had delivered my sisters baby, first child. And I felt numb
How on earth was I meant to go through with this procedure. How on earth was I going to give birth to a dead foetus?
. You go thrrough all the motions. Lots of women experience this. It is a common thing. But nobody prepares you for taking the drugs, for stopping the heart beat in your chest.
Nobody tells you that you are going to turn off the life support machine that gave birth to your babies heart beat in the first place.
Because that is what you do. You take the drug and it is no more.
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I have always been strong. Those words still ring in my head, ‘ Katie you are strong’
yes, I am strong. I am also weak
so fragile
and pure. I am so pure it harms me to hurt another human being .
