Honouring your journey, honouring your truth
Why does anything happen? Whether earthly or divine? What does anything mean?
For me the beauty is the mystery . It’s in the not knowing. It’s in the knowing that there is so much we don’t know , that we are not meant to … but glimpses of our divinity can only be sent to guide us. To humble us. To show we are never alone. That we are One. That we are every thing & no thing all
At once
I trust in you
Words my shamanic healer shared with me when I came out of hospital
You
Are
Well”
offering?
IT COMES FROM THE DEEPEST DEPTHS OF MY HEART AND SOUL. IT INCORPORATES GROUNDING, INTEGRATING, TRUSTING, BELIEVING, BEING HELD. BEING HEARD. KNOWING YOU ARE SAFE. THIS IS THIS OFFERING. IN BOLD
THE EGO DOES NOT BELONG HERE IN THIS SPACE. ONLY LOVE
In truth this session will be what it will be. Within the vast space of ‘awakening’ every thing is welcome. It calls for absolute truth and absolute trust. It calls for unconditional love which I offer you and ask you to share with me.
Incorporating the parts of you that you know to be divine
That you have seen
Integrating the knowing that there is more to life than ‘I am’
This is support
This is a sharing
This is of the most sensitive of the most sacred of spaces
This honours you wherever you are at
This gives space to you to process to restore to integrate all that you are
This is about celebration . Celebrating experiences that could be deemed shameful , experiences that may have left you feeling terrified , experiences that have felt like a spiral from which you may never come back
Experiences where you were shown heaven & you were shown hell
The places that nobody talks about , or certainly I hadn’t known .
Existing as a human being , in a human body as flesh & bones knowing , having remembered, been shown the divine parts of you
The depths
The darkness
The dark night of the soul
The heights
The riches
The bliss that is divine
✨Heavenly connaisance✨
Understanding , or at least making space for
Allowing holding honouring the sacred nature of your experience , of your awakening . Of your existential being
I didn’t know how to come back down
How to ground fully
How to truly belong
I didn’t know how
I kept being taken off
I was in between worlds
Having experienced heaven I couldn’t settle for the earth
I didn’t want to . It felt too busy too sticky too ordinary too boring too small minded too controlling . Too many limitations on my existence , too many ways I had to be seen & could do no more
I broke out
Of the cage that I had built
I didn’t want to or intend to but it was my time
I had offered complete devotion. In the light . I had offered myself up
I had surrendered to the point of not being able to do any more. So many days , nights spent screaming crying into the floor. Sobbing my heart out for the grief I felt within. Not understanding where it was all coming from but having to be shown
To unpeel the layers day after day
To do the work of bringing my pain to the light
Of tirelessly peeling off all parts of the mask
Until there I was . Seen. Naked & alone
And my mind couldn’t take it. It had all happened too fast. I was exhausted . Drinking cacao to widen the heart. It was all too much, I had nowhere to hide. Nowhere else to go. I just wanted respite
I just wanted home
I just wanted holding
By the truest of love
Unconditional . I needed to know this ✨love , that it existed✨ . Within & without
I didn’t understand it of course at the time
I was high as a kite
Then spiralling out of my mind
With archangel Michael
In heaven above
An ego death I believe they call it. I only know this from books
The dark night of the soul. I’ve heard it described as this
✨A divine awakening✨ . This is how I refer to it
How if anybody had bothered asking me , if anybody had honoured my spirituality, this is how I would have described it.
Where it was safer to be with Arch Angel Michael in the Garden of Eden than being a Human body existing within human realms just for a few moments in time.
And I had to listen
I had to ask for support
I had to be held
I had to be nurtured again like a child
I had to be told I was worthy of love . I had to believe I was truly enough . I had to receive and receive and receive & ✨be loved ✨
This
Has
Taken
Time
Continues to be part of my awakening . Full acceptance of myself
Of my gifts
Of my heart
Why I came here to be
This is work in progress & perhaps will be my entire life. I don’t know I don’t know anything . How can I. It is beyond my control & it’s not at the same time
I was shown that I am everything & nothing all at once
That the heavens can come for us if we ask them enough
I did
That in order to access the depths of the soul we have to be prepared to be petrified , terrified , to relinquish control
Fully
To see
We are here to be , not to fight
We are here to love , love on this earth
Here to have it easy not make it tough
We are here to honour, all parts of ourselves
All human beings all plants Mother Earth
The animals the trees the birds & the bees
We are all inter woven all connected all one
From source from God
Whatever you want to call “ it”
✨Whatever feels right✨
Know that I’m not ‘qualified’. Only experience gained through living, through life
Know that I’m fully grounded that integration has occurred
But that I’m honouring my “story” as sacred
My time spent in a hospital ward as just that ,
The ins & outs the labels are not Important
I don’t care for labels
They cause division. They cause out of body experiences that cannot be held
I am holding you
As I hold myself
With loving arms & a knowing who we are
One & the same
With different parts to uncover
Here in this lifetime here on this earth
Because here we are
Here we have chosen to be
The earth here she needs us
To bring our gifts down
✨For ourselves first & foremost✨
Honour this, it’s important
But I do exist
And I want to . More than this I need to
And from here it’s okay
From here I am safe
From here I can build myself back up
From here I can be
And on.& up we go towards love. Towards the heart , knowing she’s got us. Knowing we’re safe from the root
I know people who have earthed me like I never thought possible , who continue to do so every step of the way
Gosh I am beyond grateful for these human beings
For it is a journey , I never really knew this
But I do now
And we need our tribe
And just like God , our tribe comes to us when we need it most
Perhaps I can be part of your tribe; for you
Know that I’m here for you
If I can be in some way
Whilst honouring my boundaries
And encouraging you to do the same
This work is complex it’s intense ✨it’s vital✨
So important to understand ourselves so
Important to allow it
Judgment free
I’m Here for you
How?
Face to face -always my preference if at all possible, particularly given the sacred nature of our sharing, of our holding
Alternatively arrangements can be made to get this technophobe (me !!) on Zoom
You are not alone
All of you is welcome , all of you is love
Words I needed to hear
Words I now know
